ET's blog of nonsense

2005-07-14T19:44:00.000+08:00

Love Me For A Reason"

Girl when you hold me

How you control me

You bend and you fold me

Any way you please

It must be easy for you

To love the things that you do

But just a pastime for you

I could never be

And I never know, girl

If I should stay or go

Cos the games that you play

Are driving me away...

Don't love me for fun, girl

Let me be the one, girl

Love Me For a Reason

Let the reason be love

Don't love me for fun, girl

Let me be the one, girl

Love Me For a Reason

Let the reason be love

Kisses and caresses

Are only minor tests, babe

Of love turned to stresses

Between a woman and a man

So if love everlasting

Isn't what you're asking

I'll have to pass, girl

I'm proud to take a stand

I can't continue guessing

Because it's only messing

With my pride, and my mind

So write down this time to time

[CHORUS]I'm just a little old-fashioned

It takes more than a physical attraction

My initial reaction is

Honey give me a love

Not a fascimile of

2005-06-28T20:37:00.000+08:00

LIT LIT LIT. its over! wheeee. ok...now its the killer hist is tmr!!!! ahhh!!!! how how how!i dunno wad to do! my international hist is screwed! mr yung and mrs ram is going to kkill us with some killer paper! haha. oh man! lit was quite hard! my friend didnt bring his book. so poor thing. so he didnt do much! cos like he didnt even have the text. ouch. he wrote i think abt 2 paragraphs for a 25 mark eassy. so poor thing. oh weelz. nvm. he will hopefully do well for the othello one. thurs is econs..and friday is CHINESE. i hate CHINESE. i wonder why chinese even came abt. wad a waste of time and a weird language with strokes. sighhh. and i have chinese oral! means i cant go out with my friends -.- how stupid. nvm. at least monday and tues will be a holiday. so got some needed rest. yeh.okies. just a question for everyone to ponder. hehs. wad would you do if one day everyone u knoe in your life right now disappears and u are all alone on this earth? haha. i dunno why i asked that. nvm.

2005-06-27T19:09:00.000+08:00

OMG. i am dead for GP! it was a mad paper. sighh..paper 2 was crazy. super hard! ahh! i am going to fail. actually everyone said tt. die die die. craps. then tmr is lit, wed hist and thurs econs..then friday chinese -.- sigh. then there is chinese oral coming up also! arrghhh...but at least next week monday and tuesday i have a break! phew. time to sleep and stone at home. yay! yesterday was youth sunday! it was quite fun. exept that i had to shake abt 200 ppl's hands. and my hand hurts from all of them squeezing so tightly. haha. but it was fun. the choir was gd, the refreshments were interesting and the ushers did a gd job! i didnt knoe that first service was so crowded! it was full! so much more than 2nd service. i always thought that 2nd service always had more ppl. i guess i was wrong. oh wellz. okies. i gtg! bybyes!

2005-06-21T19:37:00.000+08:00

HELLO everyone! well, i'm back from church camp after so long. and its been a great time that i managed to have at camp. it was just really great. spent alot of quality time with God and other church people although time there passed really fast. I think everyone there felt the same way. yeh. so now its back to mugging again. i think this camp has really shown that church people are generally really nice people and they are really up for anything. the games were quite fun except one which was dangerous. but people still went ahead and did it and some people got injured. but yeh. the chinese ministry this time were the black horses. everyone thought chinese ministry would be easy to beat cos they thought it was the 'older' folks participating and could not run much. we got a shock when the middle-aged people came to the plate and started to 'kill' us. hah. that was quite fun. yeh. and the other stuff abt camp was fun. the bbq would have been alot better had it been longer. it was too short and people didnt have much time to eat and relax! and they were playing ndp songs-.- how boring. oh wellz. okies..thats it for me this week. i gtg study! common tests are coming up in 1 week! lots of pressure to do well!. cyas!

2005-06-07T17:58:00.000+08:00

Evan & Jaron - "The Distance"

The sky has lost it's color
The sun has turned to grey
At least that's how it feels to me
Whenever you're away
I crawl up in the corner
As I watch the minutes pass
Each one brings me closer to
The time when you'll be back
You're coming back
I can't take the distance
I can't take the miles
I can't take the time
Until the next time I see you smile
I can't take the distance
And I'm not ashamed
That I can't take a breath without saying your name
I can brave a hurricane
And still be standing tall when all the dust has settled down
But I can't take the distance
I still believe in feelings
But sometimes I feel too much
I make believe you're close to me
But it ain't close enough
Not nearly close enough

I think this song has been a long-lost song. i dunno.i like it...cos the artists one of them is me! cool eh?..nah..just kiddin. great song. sorrie i have not been updating my blog much and just been stoning at home with nothing to do. well, church camp is coming up soon. looking forward for a nice time there yeh. But i dunno..i have my hesitations. The bus ride is going to be ardously(i dunno how to spell it) long. yeh. and although i plan to study on the coach, i will probably end up sleeping. sighh..i am going to be trying to do as much work as possible there. like at night, during breaks and stuff. yeh. i hope i can really commit to doing it. sighh. ok..tt's enuf abt church camp. Just before that i will be at another camp leading up to that camp. Means i wont be free for a whole week. yeh. then after tt its the mugging week before common tests. scary. I have not been doing much work. here and there only. i plan to do some intensive work. hope its not too late. like wad they say. better late than nvr! although thats a really good motto but yeh. today tennis beat volleyball in soccer 4-1. great game. nice goals here and there and plenty of scratches for everyone. ok. thats it from me for this blogging session. see ya around!

2005-05-26T20:51:00.000+08:00

what has happened? is life always dealing a bad hand? why me? why cant it nvr have happened? but it has. i guess cant change anything. Silent and not speaking. showing concern is great but i dunno. nvm. leave me alone. i will just live with it since i cant do anything to try and cure it. sigh

2005-05-15T21:02:00.000+08:00

HEY HEY!..well, the last time u heard fform me, or the last time i blogged was more than a month ago. oh boy, has time passed quick. anwyae, i hope everyone has been doing fine yeh? exams over and sadly for JC its yet to begin -.- well, during this past month, school has been fun and lots of work. sighh. and i always do work at night which kind sucks. cos i end up sleeping late, but i cant do work in the afternoon! not motivated to do work at all. ok. but i still get my work done and hopefully well. i dunno..i just write alot of nonsense and i dunno if it is even correct. i was talking to my friend the other day abt why is life like life? e.g why is a golf hole circle and not square? or why is the alphabet the alphabet and a not z or something. we were just talking nonsense. ok. nvm. A grp of us were also talking abt star wars. the upcoming movie. HOPE it will be gd. dunno yet. it better be gd! i have been playing quite a bit of tennis recently and ppl say i am all black -.- oh man. i dont want to be black! too dark is not gd. WE made it to the top 4! by God's grace and alot of other stuff. i tihnk this is probably as far as we can go and not any further but we will still try and fight. VJC, ACJC and RJC. all great squads they have. pretty strong. The ACJC, VJC match was nice! great fight vjc put up. haha. ok...anywae. i got alot of hw to do. so catch up with ya all another time yeh! BYBYES!

2005-04-02T23:02:00.000+08:00

did I hear you right
cause i thought you said
let's think it over
you have been my life
and i never planned
growing old without you

shadows bleeding through the light
where the love once shined so bright
came without a reason
don't let go on us tonight
love's not always black and white
haven't i always loved you?

but when i need you
you're almost here
and i know that's not enough
and when i'm with you
i'm close to tears
cause your only almost here

i would change the world
if i had a chance
oh won't you let me
treat me like a child
throw your arms around me
oh please protect me

bruised and battered by your words
dazed and shattered how it hurts
haven't i always loved you

but when i need you
you're almost here
and i know that's not enough
and when i'm with you
i'm close to tears
cause your only almost here

bruised and battered by your words
dazed and shattered now it hurts
haven't i always loved you

but when i need you
you're almost here
well i never knew how far behind i'd left you
and when i hold you your almost here
well i'm sorry that i took our love for granted
and now i'm with you
i'm close to tears
cause i know i'm almost here
only almost here

2005-04-02T22:56:00.000+08:00

hey everyone. how are you? i haven't blogged for ages. so many people are bugging me to blog. ok. here goes.

this week has been so busy and tiring. i got posted to sa. guess what. there's like 8 people from bc that's there! me bryan bernie mozi matt sam ng jng yaofeng. orientation is crazy. there's dance. and people were just whacking one another with whip cream, flour and watermelon. i must admit they're quite creative. all these nonsense made me left with no more clothes for the other days. hahaha.

after two days of orientation. everyone was just dazed and stoned lah. but i must admit it was fun. i enjoyed myself. :)

yesterday we had lectures. quite fun. that's why school ended kinda early. haha my sister's school had some swim meet thing. they didn't have lessons. unfair.

anyway. so here i am today, blogging. today. i didnt do much. just stoned at home. but i'm very happy today. very. i dunno why. haha ohwell.

anyway. tomorrow's church once again. it's youth praise. yay. see you all tmr then. nite everyone. i'm tired already.

2005-03-27T22:00:00.000+08:00

"BE THE MIRACLE" a mum who has 2 jobs and is able to find time to bring her kid to a ball game. thats a miracle. that was the most inspiring few sentences i have heard. tt was from bruce almighty btw. i think being the miracle is so pertinent to today's society. the world has come to become all about money, riches and power. there is no more love. i have no right to say all this but i think it is true. well, another holiday has passed and school is starting. pioneer JC is okay. nothing much going on. so my life is kind stuck. i am appealing to other places and so are a billion and one ppl in pjc. now tt easter is upon us, love is high on the agenda. the love of God for us. "I look upon Your countenance And the fullness of Your grace I can only bow down and say You are awesome in this place, Mighty God You are awesome in this place, Abba Father!You are worthy of all praise To you my life I raise You are awesome in this place, Mighty God." this week i have many things to think about and hope tt my life would change for something even better than be4. happy easter everyone.

2005-03-20T22:08:00.000+08:00

Don't leave now
Not yet
There were time we regret
And I'm sorry
Somehow I only
Wanted to make you proud
If I could only let you know
I'd give up everything I own
For just one more day with you
There's nothing I wouldn't do
I could not let it pass me by
If I make every sacrifice
To bring me back your love
If only we could live twice
If only we could live twice
When you told me I froze
It still echoes In my soul
Please forgive me
If I didn't say I love you
Every single day
If I could only let you know
I'd give up everything I own
For just one more day with you
There's nothing I wouldn't do
I could not let it pass me by
If I make every sacrifice
To bring me back your love
If only we could live twice
If only we could live twice
Nobody told me we'd only get one chance
I didn't know that our tide would turn so fast
Why we have to say goodbye
I don't understand
If I could only let you know
I'd give up everything I own
For just one more day with you
There's nothing I wouldn't do
I could not let it pass me by
If I make every sacrifice
To bring me back your love
If only we could live twice
I could not let it pass me by
Nothing I give to sacrifice
To bring me back your love
If only we could live twice
If only we could live twice
We'll meet in another life
If only we could live twice

depression. sorrie to everyone i have 'daoed' today. i just aint in the mood and not the right frame of mind. i am sorrie.

2005-03-17T23:14:00.000+08:00

TODAY!!!! HOHOHO!! thanks for that today! haha. anywae. my holidays have been rather full and i tihnk alot of ppl too. haha. oh wellz. i am so lazy to blog. i think i have lost the inspiration to blog. well. today i went to heeren to buy a wallet. and guess wad! i went to mambo and saw this wallet tt was at a disgusting price. 79 bucks!!!! gd grief! for a wallet. oh my. crazy. flash and splash was 3 times less. mambo is mad. then the day be4 i lost in topspin to a hackish kuerten. stupid. haha. then the DISGUSTING 963! YUCK! tt was the most packed bus i have ever been on in my life. it was packed to stairs and ppl were packed like sardines in the bus. AND THE BEST PART was tt the driver was still allowing people on board. 'please move in...please move in' mad driver. anywae! parents are back!!! shucks gtg! bybyes!

2005-03-08T20:04:00.000+08:00

OH MY. TIME passes of fast! haha. i didnt knoe i havent blogged for almost 2 weeks. okay. well, i just got my o level results recently and i surprisingly can make it to a JC. quite amazing and a miracle. My amath and lit was expected to get below a 4 and i did. BUt my emath and english, ss/hist and science was able to pull those up and just scrape through. I dunno where i am planning to go yet. Anywae, for the past 2 weeks i have been playing so much. actually for the past 3 months i have played more than my previous 16 years all added up together. I guess its cos we dont really take MI seriously. Which aint all tt gd. Today in school there were a PATHETIC number of ppl. i would say abt 100 plus ppl or 200? out of 1000. hahaha. so sad. So the barker ppl decided it was extremely boring in school and we left abt 9. we went down to town and just had a meal then we played a game of pool then went over to kelvin's place to play mahjong again! i tihnk we have been playing mahjong EVERYDAY for the past 2 weeks. ever since we found out 4 of us could play mahjong. haha. So tomorrow its another day of more and more play. going to do dunno wad. I cant write anything actually because i hurt my index finger on sunday while playing soccer. Sunday soccer makes my life extremely interesting. The week be4 tt i got hit in the nose by the ball and by nose started to bleed then this time was my hand. Apart from me i think there were quite a few injuries also. None serious. PHEW. okies..tt's it for my blogging for now! hahaha. cyas!

2005-02-26T14:42:00.000+08:00

There is a candle in every soul

Some brightly burning, some dark and cold

There is a spirit who brings a fire

Ignites a candle, and makes his home

So carry your candle, run to the darkness

Seek out the hopeless, confused and torn

And hold out your candle for all to see it

Take your candle, and go light your world

Frustrated brother, see how he's tried to

Light his own candle some other way

See now your sister,

She's been robbed and lied to

Still holds a candle without a flame

So carry your candle, run to the darkness

Seek out the lonely, the tired and worn

Hold out your candle for all to see it

Take your candle, and go light your world

'Cause we are a family whose hearts are blazing

So let's raise our candles, and light up the sky

Praying to our father, in the name of Jesus

Make us a beacon in darkest times

So carry your candle, run to the darkness

Seek out the helpless, deceived and poor

Hold out your candle for all to see it

Take your candle, and go light your world

Carry your candle, run to the darkness

Seek out the hopeless, confused and torn

Hold out your candle for all to see it

Take your candle, and go light your world

2005-02-24T20:53:00.000+08:00

hey everyone! i once again have not blogged for ages and ages and ages. Today was somewhat exercise day! good stuff. after school we played soccer, then i played tennis with mirza and wong ci...and others. yerps. my tennis has gotten rusty again after not playing for 2 weeks! arrghhh. horrid! oh wellz. we are playing again on sat. hopefully it will be better then. today i wanna thank my lucky stars! results are on monday! PHEW! one more weekend to relax. sighh. i tihnk i cant make it to JC anymore. i realised its HIGHLY unlikely. oh wellz! i will just have to be happy with where i have to go. okay..i duno wad else to say. oh ya! the rumours! the nonsense rumours! sighh. white letter below 9 -.- rubbish! but i dunno abt the teaching letter thing. moe says it isnt true. so we will jsut take it as they say. haha. so scary! ARRGGHH!!!

2005-02-16T18:55:00.000+08:00

I hope you never lose your sense of wonder,
You get your fill to eat but always keep that hunger,
May you never take one single breath for granted,
God forbid love ever leaves you empty handed,
I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean,
Whenever one door closes I hope one more opens,
Promise me that you'll give faith a fighting chance,
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance.
I hope you dance....I hope you dance,
I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance,
Never settle for the path of least resistance
Living might mean taking chances but they're worth taking,
Loving might be a mistake but it's worth making
Don't let some hell bent heart leave you bitter
When you come close to selling out reconsider
Give the heavens above more than just a passing glance,
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance...
Time is a wheel in constant motion always rolling us along
Tell me who wants to look back on their years and wonder where those years have gone.
I hope you dance....I hope you dance,I hope you dance....I hope you dance,
I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean
Whenever one door closes I hope one more opens
Promise me that you'll give faith a fighting chance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
Dance....
This song our principal showed it to us. The lyrics are reall really meaningful especially in the light the results and other problems in life that ppl might be facing. Just stand up and face the problem. =)

2005-02-16T17:40:00.001+08:00

hey all! haha. HAPPY V DAY! i didnt knoe i didnt blog for so long..oh my...sighh. haha. well, 25th feb! the hated day! arrgghhh!!! i tihnk i am going to fail or something. i didnt get that funny teacher's letter? wad in the world is that? MOE is so sneaky. Give a letter and tells you your results so subtlely(dunno if that is how you spell it). So fast and the results are out alrdy. Today things happened in school and over these few days. So many problems. Dont worry, time will solve the problem yeh? =). The weekend passed pretty quickly and so did the week. Time is passing so fast! scary! And today there was some principal talk? The principal..sighhh. Squeeze 1000 ppl into a patheticly small hall. And the lessons are getting more and more boring. Everyone is just doing a routine alrdy. i dunno wad else to blog abt alrdy. My mind is in a muddle also. hahaha. anywae! hang loose everyone! hang in there!

2005-02-09T13:17:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE! by now everyone would be busy out getting ang baos and stuffing yourself with more and more food! eat in moderation! i am just kiddin. Eat more. hehs. so i hope everyone will have a great well-deserved weekend! okay, so the past weekend has passed rather quickly. on sunday we went for a little soccer match after church. Great game everyone! i wanna say i am fine. I got accidentally whacked by the soccer ball at point-blank range and my nose started bleeding. i get the nonsense all the time. BUT i am fine now. thanks for all the concern guys, especially bryan. =) Then came monday! the wonderful day. We went to school then decided to go out if i am not wrong. I cant remember where we went. OH YA! we went to cine with dee, roseline and audrey. Together with jang, hussain, calvin yu, kevin sim, me, wei chang and merza! Fun time at cine. We ate a burger king and took one whole section cos our table was so long ppl culd not get through to the other side. oh well. Then we all bought lots and lots of fries. We wanted some mayo with the fries and guess wad! it costs 10 cents per packet of mayo?! its day-light robbery! Then calvin yu started disturbing dee and she threw ice at him. haha. crazy ppl. Then we went to heeren to find bags, ended up buying those bands from 77th street. The bands are HUGE! disgustingly HUGE. oh well. Maybe cos i have very small wrists. Then me and wei chang had to leave to go home and he had to go for piano -.- while jang, kevin and the 3 gurls stayed to do some shopping and be with kevin till he could go home. haha. getting a taxi at orchard at 4 plus 5 is insane! we waited for close to 30 mins for the stupid taxi to come. Then tuesday i decided to skip school with jang and kevin and we went back to our old school to see some teachers and just be bored. Kevein made me go back to MI to meet his OG ppl and we went all the way there, only to go back to orchard again to meet barker ppl. haha. and oh ya! thanks 05A5 for tt great bbq! i shld have stayed longer but i had to go for the other one. great fun. 05A5 kicks butt! u rock my socks! haha. back to tuesday, i went out with someone. great fun! thanks! tt's it for this chinese new year! Wish one and all a blessed new year!

2005-02-03T19:37:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow for me is gonig to be a mad day for me..i have 2 bbqs and a supposed chalet. But i think i wont go my OG chalet. I AM SO SORRY OG24. i cant go. I have stuff on yeh? haha. ok. So today i went to IMM to buy stuff for tmr's class bbq to say goodbye to bithiah. awwww. so sad :(. And i STILL am sad. oh well. Now i shall talk abt my ever-gay form teacher. Mr Jason Chen. I hope he doesnt ever see this. Otherwise he would kill me or something. I find him rather childish and gay. He has weird hand actions and wad have u. Like wad gays do. And he has the weirdest smile and he thinks he is so 'cool'. YUCK! i sound like a girl. I dunno wad else to say! oh ya. Lecture today turned into some gossip session with andrea, liang pei and audrey and others. haha. Its so interesting. GOOD LUCK ANDREA! hehs. *wink wink*. I CANT wait till tmr! yay! 4pm! hehs. okay..time to go..my entries are getting shorter and shorter and further further apart

2005-01-31T18:59:00.000+08:00

oh my..once again i am back blogging after ages. i suck at doing this daily man! haha. today i feel so sad! and i will be sad for the next few days cos *ahem*..well i cant say. but its cos i miss someone. oh well. hmm. anyway. so i went out today for a while and played abit of tennis. i think i have been playing too much tennis alrdy. i need to start to cut down. then tomorrow there is PE! yuck! i wanna kill myself. PE last week so games which was okay but i tihnk this week is going to be conditioning. which is stupid and tiring. i think i will just have to live with it. The pathetic school. BUt, the school has friday next week as a holiday to encourgae 'family time'. hehs. so tt's gd. extra long 5 day weekend. great stuff! Last week friday Bithiah from my class left, but today she came back to school. haha. quite funny. Some people got a shock for a while. But we will be going out on friday as a class to say gdbye to her. No one knoes where we are going to go! And on friday, our ever intelligent form teacher made the math test on friday as well. retard. so tt's it for my ever boring life. cyas!

2005-01-22T19:53:00.000+08:00

woah. its been one week! i didnt even realise time past so fast. scary. and 1 week nearer to results. sighh. prays ernestly. haha. oh well. its a ncie long weekend now and hari raya has just past and i just came back from a birthday lunch. HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALEX in advance. yerps. so we ate at seoul garden today. it was 320.90 for 14 ppl? not cheap eh? 22 bucks per person. so we sat down 8 on one side 8 on the other. cos matthias and rachael loo came abit later. anyway, seoul garden was quite gd. gd food. and bryan yeo was trying to make the adapce explode. however u spell tt funny thing. my spelling sucks. okay. so it did not explode for some reason. it just turned extremely brown. haha. and we ate lots and lots of chicken. And mozi was busy peeling prawns the whole time cos joses didnt want to peel any. And she peeled a whole bowl of prawns! pro. then after our little fisaco at seoul garden, we went to kino to check out books. Rather boring. I dunno why i was so dao the whole day. Was not really in the mood to go out i guess. Sorrie guys. okay. then dee, mark loo, and a few others left to go back to church for YF while the 8 of us left for cine. When we got to cine, we saw huixin selling flags. so we kindly donated so money. but i think most of us just took the sticker but nvr gave. then cine didnt have any gd timings so we walked to lido. then we met huixin again. and Joy who was with her friend. yerps. then lido we got asked by some pesky security guard to move away from the area cos we were blocking ppl. although there was no one. Then bryan bought first row tickets for yiling, bernie, alex, bryan and jeremy. But everyone didnt want first row but bryan had alrdy bought all the tickets so they tried their luck and tried to change timing and hopefully get better seats. But the dude at counter 4 was being stupid and was nagging. So they just left it as it is. Then jeremy didnt want to watch cos it was too late! Matthias was kind enuf to take over jeremy's seat. haha. cos jeremy was meeting his friends there. then we left and went downstairs where we dropped douglas to the mrt station and i left as well to go home cos i was playing tennis. but in the end my cousin could not make it. SO now i am stuck at home! sighhh. i was checking out some racquets be4 i left for home. n code now going for 240? so cheap la! and i saw a babolat pure drive going for 199. i tihnk after chinese year i am going to buy tt! i wanna try a new racquet. I am getting bored of my 6.3 i wanna try another brand. yerps. so tt's it for my weekend. have a gd weekend. or wadever is left of it :D

2005-01-17T18:15:00.000+08:00

okay. today was a very interesting day in my life. hah. we had tutorials and stuff and lectures in school then school ended. And when i went to the court, ppl were playing bball in school u and the PE teacher saw them and took the ball cos they are not allowed to play in school u. Then the whole grp of J1s took the whole place and it was packed with ppl! so me and a few other ppl left to go to orchard where we sepnt some time and i met my old time friend aziz. Apparently he is working at cine now as a sound technician or something. I dunno. So we talked for a while then i went to some jap place at cine. The food aint bad. But it was not cheap. abt 6 bucks? i am spending wayyy too much money alrdy. I need to start to moderate and all. Then Kevin met some ppl and they went to watch a movie and me and wei chang grabbed a cab outside cine to go back. Apparently i tihnk the taxi driver was in a bad mood or something and he scolded me. -_- i have no idea wad for. He said i was rude when i was giving him directions. I guess i was rather abrupt with the directions but i think he is just weird. He has no idea where alot of places are and wad have u. He said i acted like he was my dog. -_- i wonder wad gave him tt idea. I said sorrie obviously but he probably doesnt care. I didnt want to get into any stupid problem with him anyway. Waste breath fighting with such ppl. So my day was spoilt cos of tt. Wei Chang probably thinks i am rude or something. i guess have to just tell the taxi driver next time where the place is and tell him to read the bloody street directory and not talk to me. hahahahahhah. I am just so frustrated. i wanted to say.."eh uncle..can keep quiet anot? who is the one with the money! certainly not u!down here i want to go home and have peace. NOt here for u to nag at me and act grumpy."but i decided to hold tt thought otherwise i ithnk he would die or something. oh well. haha. tt's it for today.

2005-01-14T20:50:00.000+08:00

its been quite a while since i blogged and i finally changed my song! hehs..if u alrdy have not realised. its not the song 'ghost of you and me'. nice song:D but i tihnk i will be changing songs rather often cos i have so many tt i wanna try but i cant put them all. yerps..haha..so expect to see further changes =). Its now been 2 weeks of school and i hope everyone out there who HAS school is doing fine yes? new subjects, new ppl...blah blah blah. I am sounding so old. oh wellz. yerps. Its been a rather boring 2 weeks cos of school and all but slowly its getting more and more interesting with each day cos get to knoe ppl better and all. We will see for another 2 weeks if i plan to stay on. Otherwise!..i will be roaming the streets like so disillusioned dunno wad. haha. =S. Well yesterday i saw so many ppl at orchard. Quite scary. i saw euods=) and some other ppl who were there as well with some other *ahem*. I shant mention names. Anyway, i realised the year has started quite sluggishly. I dont knoe, dont u?..haha. Well, i just want to wish everyone here a good weekend and to my best friend..SMILE and be happy!..and i hope everything has worked out =).

2005-01-09T21:15:00.000+08:00

hey hey! i have not blogged for a while. And i was reminded by a few ppl to blog. so here i am. hi!. -.- okay. so the past few days have been rather rather BORING! school is so boring. Although i dont fall asleep but it is boring. i have no idea why. It is just boring. the school itself looks like it will fall apart with the touch of a finger or something. I tihnk it is like 100 years old or something. and the school is puny -.- its so small and it cant accomodate so many of us la. I have no idea why they want to hold such a big school in such a small place. sighhz..sucks. Anywae, i made a few new friends here and there but mostly still my grp of usual school friends cos we always sit together during lectures and stuff like everyone else. And i tihnk it will probably take a while for everyone to open up to each other. By then, we would all be gone alrdy! yahooo!!!! i rather be gone honestly. Hope my results will take me somewhere although i am not confident at all. And now my maid is making soooo much noise just cos i have been on the comp for a rather long time. My parents went out again. To dunno where to do dunno wad. I dont wanna knoe..just be happy they are not at home to scold and scream at me! yay!. so i got the most wonderful day today. It was so nice! i cant tell why. haha..i had a nice lunch and then someone gave me something after i had my lunch and after i went home..awwww so sweet! hahahaha...okay..out of point. nvm. yerps. So i have been doing nothing much except stoning at home and msging and doing nothing else and just waiting for time to pass and waiting for my time to leave tt lousy school. i still have to go back tomorrow. AHHH!!!! i wanna just die now and not go. YUCK! okiess...tt's it for now..bybyes!

2005-01-02T17:54:00.000+08:00

I'm sorry for all the things
I've did that make u want to cry
I'm sorry for all the things
I've said that tear you up inside
I'm sorry for not always being there when you really needed me there
and for all those times when i made you think that i never really cared
I'm sorry for all the things i didn't say that you needed to hear
I'm sorry for letting you down when you really wanted me here
I'm sorry for not being who you want me to be
and for not making you do those things that you want to do with me
but if i had a wish to anything i could...
take everything back in a heartbeat i would....
but you don't know how it feels.....
waking up everyday with your head to the floor
not believing what you did behind those closed doors
walking with shame in your soul and weight on your shoulders all hurting inside wishing the pain will finally be over
At times wondering why i did.... what i did...
i just turned sixteen.. i didn't know any better.. i was only just a kid...
but I'm sorry for everything.. I'm sorry for what what i did
I'm lucky i didn't go any further;
I'd give up everything i had thinking how in the world am i ever going to tell what i did
just thinking about what i did tears my heart to shreds
that in the middle of the night i curl up and cry all alone on my bed
wanting to forget about it...wanting it to disappear
but in your dreams it hunts me cause it always reappears
but theres nothing i could do now but try to move on
except what i did and try to carry on
sometimes when I'm holding you my soul cracks a little
thinking that you wont love me now and want to see other people...
and every time i look into your eyes
i think about what i did and it makes me want to die.
but i want you to understand because all of me is in your hands
that all i ask is for you to except me for all that i am
and wait till we're ready because i know i can
right now i really need you to be strong....
even though i know the urge no longer can hold on
but you're all that i wanted
so put your pride down and try to understand
that i love you with all my heart and nothing can ever tear what we have apart....
but if you cant wait for me though
than all i ask is for you to please let me go
i love you with all that i am and all with my heart
and i already told you that I'm not giving in since the start
and if you love me the way you say you do
than wait for me please i ask of you

My blog is turning into a poem filled blog. Oh well

2005-01-02T17:22:00.000+08:00

well well. ERMMMMM.. i dunno. I have had some interesting past few days and a VERY VERY interesting new year's day. Stuff has been happening and i have no idea how to explain it all. I dunno. I am caught in a HUGE problem now and i think there are so many issues that need to be resolved asap. So i hope people understand if the next few days i go into a time of ermm..'meditation'. Yerps. Well, its been a long year, and i am starting of this year on a totally wrong foot and i hope it will pass over soon. And i think that person will have to relax. I knoe it will not be easy but i guess thats what you have to do la. No other way. ITs not the end of the world. I nvr said anything really and i dont think there is anything to get sad over la. If you want to scold me, SCOLD me for goodness sake. If it makes you feel better. REALLY. And i dont play with this kinda thing la. So what i tell you is the truth. yerps. Hope you will understand. Okay. Now. I am in absolutely no mood to do anything. I tried to eat last night, but sadly i took 2 bites of char siew and i decided not to eat at all. It was far too much for my alrdy half-destroyed soul to take it. I think all this is coming down to whether i am making too many friends or something?..i dunno. Being too sociable has its downs. I have absolutely no joy left and i think today my dg members did feel the brunt of my anger abit here and there. And i am sorrie, but today is really not my day. Hopefully you all will change and continue to pray. Well, praying is something i have done for the past night, and i think i will continue that good habit but i think sometimes it is so so so hard not to not listen to my human nature and let the Spirit of God take control. So i hope to try and do that. Well, these issues are getting bigger and bigger, and problems are getting larger and larger and i think i might just blow when it comes to the serious crunch time. So if anything, i would like to say sorrie to everyone in advance be4 you might feel the pinch. Life has been not going too well so far, and yes i have people i am beginning to see who are becoming also more 'depressed' and i hope that life gets better for you over time. yehh. Okay. i so how wrote something out of dunno what and i think its good that we honestly and earnestly pray over this next few weeks for the many of who died recently and concentrate on the one God who is able to make all of this right again. I hope that the people who are involved in my problem will come to know that i really didnt want it to come to this but rather hope that it would have grown into something greater and not just die and nvr come back ever again. SORRIE!

a long search that everyone strives for.
when i only thought i was beginning to find more.
of what i have always wanted.
but it has always left me haunted.at the start it was always good for me.
in the end its always what i didnt want to see.
that love could hurt so bad.
and i always stayed so sad.
untill the next one came to be.
it all started and always ended with me.
and it came to be that i forgot of love..
and then my focus turned to above..
and then i learned that looking for the one always left you with none..
if you wait longer than before it will be like standing on the shore.
and seeing the light that can only be seen in the dead of night

2004-12-31T11:55:00.000+08:00

Happy New Year everyone! May Your new year be filled with happiness, joy and laughter. HAHAHAHAHAHA. -_- That was lame. Anyway, yesterday was extremely interesting. I met a HUGE number of people at cine and heeren. Quite scary to see so many people i know. And today is new year's eve! and there is going to be the highl;y-anticipated watchnight. I have been asked to find games but i dunno. Some people find the games not very fun. I dunno also. So now i have to go and figure out more interesting games given the constraints of a house. going to be tough. And yesterday i finally got the songs for worship on sunday! NOw i have to go and practice more. And i will hopefully get nagged less. Oh well. I dunno wad else to put in. oh y a. HAPPY NEW YEAR. cyas!

2004-12-23T23:11:00.000+08:00

I would firstly like to annouce the complete failure of my change in template. There was some massive colour coordination problem and a failure in the template. So i have reverted back to my old one. HOWEVER, it is in nice a colourful hot pink as you all can see. No i do not support gays. BUt somehow it has come out pink. I will do what i can to try and revert back to the original colour. Which i cant quite remember. But somehow the pink looks rather dashing. :D...JUST KIDDIN!...hang loose one and all. 1 more week be4 school. COngrats for the marvelous job during this nice festive season. Hope one and all gets nice presents from mr santa and his helpful gnome(me!). ONce again. have a nice christmas. Merry Christmas and a happy new year! oh ya, btw, the tooth fairy is on leave this past 2 months cos of the impending snow. If u like to leave a message, please contact 9100-tooth-fairy-is-cool. Thanks.

2004-12-22T13:21:00.000+08:00

The sky has lost it's color
The sun has turned to grey
At least that's how it feels to me
Whenever you're away
I crawl up in the corner
As I watch the minutes pass
Each one brings me closer to
The time when you'll be back
You're coming back
I can't take the distance
I can't take the miles
I can't take the time
Until the next time
I see you smile
I can't take the distance
And I'm not ashamed
That I can't take a breath without saying your name
I can brave a hurricane
And still be standing tall when all the dust has settled down
But I can't take the distanceI still believe in feelings
But sometimes I feel too much
I make believe you're close to me
But it ain't close enough
Not nearly close enough

2004-12-21T11:03:00.000+08:00

hey all. It has been ages since i blogged and mr bill and euods are chasing me to blog. So i will:D. Life has been quite busy. So many christmas things to do. Church bbq, and the church skit which i think it excellent stuff. Nice plot and all. And the games have been reduced from 5 to 2. Which i think is getting rather pathetic. hahaha. but i tihnk the 2 games will be gd fun. Well, i went out yesterday, had a great time and was definetly memorable. *winkwink*. Sam just told me abt 1 horu ago tt he needs 10 ppl to go for the late Mr Sandy Eu's funeral as ambassadors of the school. And tomorrow is also sec 1 registration in school. How nice. The timing is picture perefect. Unbelievable stuff. I am wasting so many messsages sending back to ppl cos i dont have their numbers and i have to ask who they are. So troublesome! BUt i guess have to deal with it. This month's bill is going to shoot sky-high. tt's it from me for this week. I aint got time to do anything else. CYAS

2004-12-15T11:35:00.000+08:00

HEYHEY...finally i am back in SG. After 4 days of mad shopping and constant squeezing in the cab. We got quite sick of the cab..so we started taking the sky train which was madly expensive but it was fast! and the best part was tt after the stop..we have to walk all over the place just to get to the shopping centre...-_-. BUt the shopping there is great! Singapore stuff are so expensive...unbelievable! Bangkok starbucks rock! a cup of nice hot chocolate was 2 bucks..and iced stuff were like 3. cheap then 6 bucks here?.. And i got kinda a billion and one new shirts. And 2 new bags. All at dirt cheap prices. And got something for church ppl mostly...except for j yap which i got him his phone covers. And for all the church ppl, my dg i got some nice stuff..u will see on christmas time, for ama and shi i got ya nice dogs, i got sot a dog dresses in sheep's clothing(dead cute), euods and jia i got pigs..nice cute pigs..and for ting i got a cow. hahaha..yerps...and everyone else i got some stuff. Alex and bryan i got notebooks..and my luggage could not carry anymore. hahaha..tt's it. I went to bangkok with 3 relatively empty luggages and came back with 3 luggages and 2 boxes.hahahaha..crazy!...and i met qutie a few ppl in bangkok. my old time friend edric at the airport, calvin yu at the bkk-sin plane. and some other church ppl at the airport. And bangkok is filled with tourists. I see more toursits then thais. I tihnk the thai lanugage is quite cool. But it cant beat french...hahaha. OUr hotel was cool. Plenty of channels. And thai people get hbo free?!..WAH..cant stand it. So it was mostly fun. The food there is cheap too. Aiya...everything there is cheap la. And the got some new shoes too!..wheeee. Fun. But the roads there are terrible. The drivers drive like nobody's business. And the roads are always jammed. And at bangkok! the check-in computer system died. Quite funny. They were stamping things without checking the computer. hahaha..we stood there for so long until they could not hold the flights and just boarded everyone. So bangkok was quite fun. Although the ever present nagging was there. it was fun overall. Recommend u go there. 8 stars! out of 10:D..i am just bored..haha...well..on the down side of all this..i guess..there is something i realised after a very long time. And after doing nothing for a long long long time i have come to realise tt it just aint the end of the world...oh wellz. i am always sounding depressing. Gosh. the blog itself looks sad...oh wellz..try and bring some happiness into my life:D..happy new year..and may the elves and gnomes come to your house and give u gifts. I may just be one gnome:D...(corny)..cyas!

2004-12-08T15:23:00.000+08:00

i am so sorry. There have been some technical difficulties with this template or something..not quite sure what happened. But i lost all the links and tags..so if u all could be so nice.haha..u can retag the blog again..haha..thanks!!!..and put your unmber while u are at it..and your real name..hah..thanks

2004-12-05T18:53:00.000+08:00

well...how unlucky today!..my phone got stolen. by a stupid malay. Why is it always malays!!...cant stand it. He jus stood next to me and was looking then the next thing i knew..it was gone. What a sneaky nonsense!..cant stand it. Now i have to go through alot of trouble to get a new phone. Lets hope my dad would be nice and give me a new phone. But i tihnk it is not highly probable. Oh well. Live without a phone for a while. It feels so funny without a phone. All my nice messages, writings, pictures..etc!..plus..most importantly..CONTACTS!...nooooo!!! So i need u all to give me your contactsyaofeng if many of u think so. if u want to knoe more, find me. I will tell u. Or ask Euods..haha..she knoes..i managed to survive the torture of getting scolded. So now i feel like crap without my phone. Church today was quite fun:D..hehs...oh wellz..gtg try and beg for a new phone..cyas

2004-12-04T14:03:00.000+08:00

ahh..for 6 days i did not blog. HOW NICE. anywae, the reason was tt i was away at camp. Youth camp. Camp was good. Felt very resort like. Sadly i hurt my leg but it is all okay now. Hopefully. hehs. And we did alot of nonsense. And now apparently there is one question on everyone's mind. the sec 2 dg...hahaha...hmms..thre answer to tt appalling question is tt we are just best friends! nothing la. You all think so much. Camp was quite fun. The parents night was good stuff although the pa thing was quite messy. But it was good. Good job everyone. The play was suepr funny. Burning 'bush'. LOL. Then there was the ever notorious pungent dungeon. It stinks. And there was the sneezing orchestra. the camp theme song was good too. A bit hard to sing at first. But with the cd it got better and better. And we have to sing on tomorrow. Oh boy. Lucky for me i am sick alrdy and i tihnk i wont be able to make it. I made a few new friends in church too. Like ting, sot, jia, ama, yiling, mark twoon, huixin, joy, melko, shi and so on. hahaha..great fun. The war games were quite fun too. But it should have been long. NOw i am finding songs and more songs. and sending to everyone. So fun! My messages have reached an all time high alrdy. i tihnk 2k plus. I will have to stop!. GOSH! die alrdy. Camp had other more interesting things happening. We found out how talented yeng wai is. can play recorder, piano, guitar, sing(i think), drums, basketball and soccer. He is pro at all of them too. Cant stand such talent. PRO. My group was really really small. And it got bigger towards the last day of the camp. But i tihnk our skit went quite okay. Theme talks were interesting. LeBron James is one heck of a basketball player. He can hit shots from full court?!?!...madness..haha..dad's back..gtg..cyas!

2004-11-27T22:27:00.000+08:00

it seems like everyone is saying my blog is depressing..hahahahaha..well..now i will make it nice and fine and dandy. Juniors camp just past and it was quite fun i guess. Happy thoughts. haha..and some really really weird rumours. VERY weird rumours. and eug was hugging me in the room. -_-. yuck. but hes cool..not getting too gay i hope. hehs. And over the next few days i will be at youth camp. Hope it will be great fun:D...trust in the camp com to make it fun...hahaha...been hearing there are some funny workshops but yehh. I am in a great rush for time so..haha...have fun:D..see ya all in a week

2004-11-24T23:44:00.000+08:00

Well, in my last post i said freedom was the most wonderful thing. NOw the worse thing is not being able to have it so freely. Today was grad nite. It was one heck of a nite. Great even tnad blah the blah. Then i wanted to have some fun after that and come home abit later but NO! my parents would call me all sorts of nonsense and say they would lock me out?!?!?...like WTH. so much for freedom honestly. i think their sense of freedom is playing to a certain limit but sometimes they dont knoe that it is after exams and time to relax. It is only day 3! and my mum wants me to pack my room and makes alot of noise saying that i havent packed my room. I honestly had enough of this crap. I cannot stand it no more. They just scolded me for lifting a bag with one hand and thinks i will spoil it by accident. WTH is wrong with them. i have become the punching bag of the family and they scold me for the most minor details. I tihnk it has come to apoint where i can take it no more and i will start to fight back for what i think could be righjt and hopefully they would listen but i dont think they will. They have been finding out dunno wad stuff about me from their friends and they think that i am not being honest towards them and they want me to tell them things whihc i myself dont even knoe for example....they want me to tell them where the whole world is going for the first 3 months and they say when i dont find out that my friendship is built on nothing and i have no concern for where others are going and hopefully maybe can keep in contact. WHAT A NONSENSE EXCUSE! unbelievable. but well...this blog plz for goodness sake dont show to anyone. cos i tihnk they would kill me if they found out....angry evan...over and out.

2004-11-22T22:00:00.000+08:00

FREEDOM! FREEDOM! FREEDOM!...i love the sweet smell of freedom...today was the most blissful day of my entire life. the sweet freedom is so superb..hahahahahaha..i love it...but today was rather tiring. ALOT of walking. We walked from newton mrt to plaza sing. and shopped for clothes in between. Lots of crazy things followed by arcade after arcade. Lets hope the rest of the month will be the same. Now i am waiting eagerly for juniors camp. Hopefully it will be time filling and fun. hahaha...i just got seriously weird news but i think it is wayy too weird to tell anyone.I somewhat tried to figure out the blog thing but i ended up asking my friend to kindly do it for me..thanks! My legs are aching like crazy from all the walking. We effectively went out for about 6 hours. And spent i tihnk about 3 hours walking around from place to place and realising that each place that we go to is crowded and other nonsense. hahahaha..NOw i am entertaining myself with maplestory. It is getting rather boring and really slow. Desperate to try and find something else more entertaining to play. But i tihnk there is nothing much else to play. my mum didnt message me the whole day today! it feels good. My wish came true! Everything was going great today. Just marvelous. The paper was good too but i knoe i made i tihnk abt 3 mistakes. Gosh..oh wellz...i think i am just bored to death now. hahaha..okies...going off! bybyes!

2004-11-21T13:40:00.000+08:00

halos again...well..once again for many times be4, the family has fallen into turmoil. Shouting and screaming and the usual nonsense...but it will pass. Tomorrow is the last paper and i think i will have to pay for alot of things during this holidays because of this recent fight and blah the blah(dont tell anyone..shh!).yehh..so i think i will be quite down the next few days over this but tomorrow i will be happy for one day since exams are over and i think i will have to see my mum's 'where are you' messages every hour again. lets hope it doesnt happen tomorrow *crosses fingers* But yehh. My life has fallen into chaos and sadness and disunity as compared to many other happy and joyous people out there. My life has been gd till today and i think it iwll only get worse. ahhh..oh well..what can i do to stop this madness..nothing much i guess. And all this was over moving house-_-. How nice!..ta for now!

2004-11-20T09:29:00.000+08:00

i finally got the xbox!..woo hoo! and later i have to go for some stupid lunch. how boring. once again without fail it was my mum who wants me to go. How boring and what a waste of time. I guess there is nothing else i can do. She is forcing me to go for it and i really dont want to go for it! get her away from me! i want to play! last night was great stuff. The rain was nice and this morning was just wonderful. Nice and cool. I was thinking whether to go for family group tonight but i havent quite decided yet. I wonder who is going tonight. Oh well. I been hearing that alot of people are not going so maybe i will just stay at home and sleep=P.

2004-11-19T10:36:00.000+08:00

once again i was rudely awakened by my mum as usual. She was screaming at the top of her voice and trying to get me to get up early just to do some MCQ-_-.was talking on the phone till quite late last nite and i am still dead tired...monday sadly will be my last paper as compared to those LUCKY people who end today! Anyway, i realised that my weeks after the o's are rather full cos of camps and other nonsense..hahaha...oh well..at least i will be occupied for a while.i am finally figuring out this blog thing. BUt i tihnk i wont be able to figure it out till really really late. since now i have the time i will try and figure it out but i probably wont get very far with it. hahahaha

2004-11-18T20:58:00.000+08:00

well...today was totally boring(which was the reason why i created this blog just for the fun of it...so it looks really new!..cos it is!..and i just created the blog TODAY..so it will be quite empty for a few days to come..hang in there..it will get crowded i hope).I did abit of hanging out,but mostly thinking of how badly i have done for my exams.YUCK!.disgusting...oh gosh..i am so dead...but i better enjoy myself till march be4 i get myself killed..heh...i am dead tired... mum was doing the usual nagging and blah the blah.she wants me to practice MCQ(how exciting!). i refuse to do till friday and i tihnk she is getting quite angry.but oh well. NOW! i have one paper left while other ppl end tomorrow!...noooooo.bad planning on MOE's part..terrible..Feel free to tag my blog but use your real name and not some nonsense..haha..thank yew.i am getting bitten by mosquitoes so i think i will go and kill them and leave you to read my nonsense..hahs..laters